It's Not Me, It's You.

I definately put my whole heart into us. I pushed myself to believe that this was it. It was you and I and that was that. I stood by you through all your ups and downs, smiles and frowns.
With all your imperfections and inexpereience, you know you tested my patience, but through it all, I remained still and pushed my patience for you.
You were my dream man, my "one and only," but now that I realize how much you've punished me for all my imperfections and all my mistakes, I've also come to realize that you really weren't a man, but more of a baby. Yeah, you were a baby, a little boy who just always had to have it his way and someone who just wouldn't compromise or settle for anything else.
You pushed me, tested me, and tore me a part. You took me, took all of me and told lies to my heart. I loved you, loved all of you, accepted your wrongs. I wanted you, took care of you, and endured whatever was to come, but you, you were selfish, so cruel and rough around the edges. Never once was it you who tried to come and settle things with me, you could just never come to your senses. Maybe it's because you had none and yeah, I addmitt that it could have possibly contributed to your lack of that. I loved you too much and that really did blind me from it all. It blinded me from the fact that you were fooling me to beleive that everything that went wrong with us was my fault. So I began to beat myself up about it, cry about it, and make myself beleive that I was some kind of stupid girl who was totally blowing it with an incredible guy, who would never come my way again if I messed things up. You fooled me and fooled me good.
Oh, but now, now I see everything. Yeah, I had my share of mistakes and there's no doubt that an imperfect person who is only human would make such mistakes, but you, you tried to play God and condemn me for all of them and tried to make me feel like I was some dirty, no good, girlfriend that doesn't deserve anything good in my life. If you don't think that your treatments of unforgivingness was that harsh, you better beleive it because that's exactly how you made me feel.
You play it off real sweet, cool, and chill; the front you put up for the public eye, but honestly if you were such a nice guy then can you explain to everyone why you didn't let me go the right way? Why is it after 2 years, you could just drop me by cutting off our daily sources of communication and not have enough respect for me to just let me know how you really felt about me? How could you possibly think that a nice and proper way of letting someone go is to just stop talking to them, stop calling them, completely avoid them, lie to them, and when the opportunity for her finally comes to confront you about things, you make excuses as to why you just can't talk about it at the moment because you have to do something? Tell me, do you think nice guys use this way to break up with their girlfriends or a girl he was seeing for 2 years because he just couldn't decide weather or not he really wanted to be with her even though he told her he loved her and did everything with her like a true official couple would really do? No, that's what a stupid low life loser like you would do.
So, know that for all the times you tried to make me feel low, you only made a fool of yourself. So good job, bravo for you. Just remember at the end of the day, it really wasn't me, it was all you.