The Truth Hurts..

So today I had a pretty chill day at the beach and ended up getting my love life fortune read out to me by Mae and Ivee. Damn, I don't usually by this fortune telling, palm reading, taro/card reading stuff, but man, I just can't beleive how true everything they said about my love life was. I actually felt like crying because this has been true for way too long and to be honest, I'm so ashamed that it's been that way. I'm sorry that I love you, but have made it too hard for you to just be with me. I'm sorry I've been so scared to open up to another (you) and just start over with someone who is so capable of loving me to their fullest. I love you and if I could take back all that I've done to hurt you, I would do it in a heartbeat. I miss you so much, more than you'll ever know ..